Wednesday, May 23, 2007

i've been sleeping at like 6plus for the past threee days its actually amazing i'm awake now and blogging. we went round blocks today pose pretty and talked nicely inviting people to our school's carnival. peiying kept flirting! which i think helped because louis and yanhan sold nothing. i told them it was the problem with their face :D went for ebay awhile later. all the way to simei ite >.< TIRING. i was hoping for some buffet when i saw the table and stuff all set up outside the function room. end of seminar! nothing :( OKAY I'M ON A DIET. supposingly.


the past few days suck. my dad's pissed at me. i get no allowance from him. he refuses to talk to me. i cant remember any dance step i have learnt last friday. ROD's a week away. plus i have ebay and chongfu camp. and all of these are to take place in June. sigh. let me breathe.

i'm on the edge. and all i get is pressure, more and more pressure. hurt, and more hurt. each time i get put down, the raw and biting fear would overwhelm leaving me to cry out. it keeps building up. each time i fail, each time i stumble. when, how long..? i dare not come close. i'm ashamed. ashamed of my dreams. why dream? why try? when history merely repeats itself. my dear, you're too slow, just too slow.

catch me. i'm ready to fall.

Labels: the silhouette of my reality.

5:39 AM
upon life's envious stage.