Saturday, April 28, 2007

to elisha lin:

sorry for being such a bitch for the past few hours? or for the past few months even. shoot me cause ive waited this long to realise how good you actually are. sorry for always being so self-centered and materialistic. sorry for only emphasizing on your bad points and never being thankful for all that youve done for me, all the times youve been there. and thank you, for tolerating me when i'm in one of my moods and i vent my anger on you. thank you for always being the one trying to keep this relationship going when all i do is try to spite you. youve hurt me, your stupidity in practically everything has caused me alot of pain. but i forgive you, because i love you.

i promise this will be the last. i won't break anymore. just be a lil smarter, and dont use me for a joke. okay? :D

5:08 AM
upon life's envious stage.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

you don't know how lovely you are.

ah bless you<3

guys who think they own the world just because they happen to carry a nicer handbag than me, or wears a nicer black pants than me or own a nicer ipod than me! deserves to die! you snob :(

2:01 AM
upon life's envious stage.

Saturday, April 21, 2007

i've been lusting over this miss sixty bag since like, forever? okay fine since last week. see the stupid price tag down there? it happens to say "i'm $78!" which isnt a problem for me if i wasnt trying to be the fillal daughter/granddaughter or the goood girlfriend/friend. damn. i need to get presents for everybody, but i want that bag! i'm dragging cherie along to lust over that bag again tomorrow, perhaps i shall succumb to temptation and buy it :D

i went to stay over at my grandparents house yesterday night. grandparents are the purest form of love. my grandfather actually sat on a chair for a whole half an hour praying and worshipping to God at home. and he does that everyday. along with my dear grandmother (: the love they have for God, its beautiful. the wonders You create, i can only imagine.

i searched with all my heart to know,
if God was really there,
he graciously revealed Himself,
his love mercy and care.

2:14 AM
upon life's envious stage.

Monday, April 16, 2007

i've done my best, the ball's in your court.

i will understand. still, i thank you, for everything.

kasey chambers-not pretty enough

Am I not pretty enough
Is my heart too broken
Do I cry too much
Am I too outspoken

Don't I make you laugh
Should I try it harder
Why do you see right through me
I live, I breathe, I let it rain on me
I sleep, I wake, I try hard not to break
I crave, I love, I've waited long enough
I try as hard as I can
I laugh, I feel, I make believe it's real

I fall, I freeze, I pray down on my knees
I hope, I stand,
I take it like a man
I try as hard as I can

4:56 AM
upon life's envious stage.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

shopping, shopping, shopping. the pictures tell it all (:

LOVE<3

7:54 AM
upon life's envious stage.

Friday, April 13, 2007

the picture i promised (:

YING PEI, don't shuaaa cool la! :D

















technically, my life should be full of colours.

i don't understand how you can chose to avoid me, to turn away at the mere sight of me, and even shut your ears when you hear my name. ah, i wonder when will be the next time you decide to talk to me again, to bother acknowledging my existance and be the friend you used to be. i don't know. maybe it dosent matter to you anymore, perhaps you barely care. but i can't forget you, i can't just play dumb and ignore you the way you're so good at. i was stupid i made mistakes. now i'm begging you, please forgive me, cause your friendship means something to me, and i hope, you know.


tag replies:
cherie: and i would like to repeat for the millionth time, i'm not a kukoo! even though my hair looks the part now but i'm perfectly intelligent okay.
chermel: ehh i suddenly became super nice you seeee. wait. i'm always nice. nevermind. loveyou too!
elisha: hey :D
BRANDON:hahahaa, yes very long, i'm looking forward to teacher's day again (:
prince: eh what siaaa. its the prince's job! and you promised to help at first plus i didnt know you'll keep your promise right!

6:48 AM
upon life's envious stage.

Monday, April 02, 2007

IF EVERYDAY WAS TODAY (:



oh and i love elisha's hair :D HEH.

4:08 AM
upon life's envious stage.

Sunday, April 01, 2007

one week, one week to make the decision i can't even bear to think about. dear God, don't blame me, if i chose to run away.

i walk to the window and peer into the endless night,
the clouds and the wind are gone now, there's only the moon,
and tall, dark trees jutting up toward the ebony sky,
a night bird calls out and my heart is filled with gloom.


tag replies:
chermel: yes i'll not be lazy and link you (: loveya!
delon:i know you will :D
prince:wrong.. youre cool because i'm cool, heeeh.
elisha:life sucks.

Labels: terror.

4:02 AM
upon life's envious stage.